I get it, you’re tired of seeing my posts about anxiety. You wish I would just shut up about it. You think it’s ridiculous that I post so much about it, and you roll your eyes and wish you didn’t have to see it anymore. But you don’t have to. You can ignore the posts, pretend you don’t see the, scroll past them, choose not to read them. I can’t do that. I can’t just pretend it isn’t there.
When I’m the Busiest
In 2, 3, 4 Out 2,3, 4 “Just breathe” They say, as if I’m not already trying to do that But my heart is racing to the beat of a marching band And there’s a force holding my lungs hostage “Just breathe” like it’s the most simple thing in the world And usually it is We don’t even think about it Until something is keeping us from doing it In 2, 3, 4 Out 2, 3, 4 And the only thing I want at that moment Is to get away from all of these people Because I’m raw and unfiltered and in trouble “Just breathe” but how does one Who’s drowning just breathe? There’s water washing over my head My legs are kicking fruitlessly, my hands reaching to the sky In 2, 3, 4 Out 2, 3, 4 And I have to remind myself that there’s…
Eastonville, CO
Eastonville was a town in Colorado near Black Forest that was established around 1880. It was named after a pioneer, John Easton. The area was noted to be great for potato farming, and was the self-proclaimed “Potato Capital of the World”. It was one of the many stops on the railroad, laid by Denver and New Orleans Railroad. The original stop, however, was called McConnelsville and was a couple miles away from the actual location of Eastonville. Eastonville had so many jobs and not enough workers that large ads used to be printed in the Colorado Springs Gazette boasting high pay and good work. By the 1900’s, the town had three churches, a school house, three hotels, a race track, and several businesses, as well as 350-500 residents. The town thrived until 1930, when drought and depression hit. All that remains today are a few scattered structures, and the cemetery…
An Open Letter to my Anxiety
Not-so-dear-anxiety, I’ve seen you for a couple of weeks now, lurking in the corner. I’ve simultaneously been preparing myself for you, and trying not to think about you. Somewhere in between my all-day classes and my nightly practicing, you’ve managed to rear your ugly head once again. And here I was, thinking I was finally done with you. How could I be so silly? But really, you couldn’t have chosen a worse time to do it, what with all of the things I’ve got on my plate right now. And of course, how could I ever forget your lovely partner, panic attacks? I hope your marriage is going well. Believe me, Anxiety. I see that person walking towards me, but I really don’t think they’re going to do much of anything. You think they might look at us? Well shit, better give me a heart attack right here on the…
Bad Day
When it’s a bad day She’s got bags under her eyes And bags weighing her down And she’s put the most effort into working a smile onto her face Her heart is pounding with every step Her hands are shaking And every look her way Feels like lasers burning holes in her The demons in her head Are laughing hysterically Because everyone is looking And she’s hoping they don’t see her eyes Because then they’ll see her In her natural, unaffected form With eyes like a scared animal and something squeezing her chest When it’s a bad day She puts her head down Because dealing with people is so hard When she can’t even deal with herself Nobody pays her much mind But it doesn’t matter Because her demons are singing And taking her breath away When it’s a bad day She retreats into…
28 Rules to Leading A Happy and Healthy Lifestyle
Always find a way to make the day great! Smile always Don’t let the little things get you down If you don’t want to do something, then don’t do it Find your own happiness Laugh often Love everyone! Have fun in everything you do Don’t let the stresses of life get you down Take a break Take a breath Go outside Dance in the rain Sing loud, and often Appreciate the little things Thank your family and friends Don’t get hung up on mistakes Know that mistakes can happen, and that’s okay Don’t second guess yourself Don’t do anything you’ll regret If stress becomes paramount, stop what you’re doing It’s okay to take a break Put yourself first If it makes you feel bad, don’t do it Eat every day Drink lots of water Take care of yourself! And last but not least, LOVE YOURSELF!!!